Working out makes me sick

Seriously. 

I run, lift, jump, crunch, squat and lunge. I feel like crap while doing it. My muscles ache, my lungs scream for more air, and I leave sweat marks all over the gym equipment.

For several hours AFTER a work out, I am walking on air. Endorphins are an amazing drug, and I ride that high as long as possible. My muscles keep me warm in the cold, I feel lighter, more fit, and like I accomplished something fantastic.

Then I wake up the next morning, convinced I am dying. Not only do my muscles hurt, but they are sluggish. It takes some real coaxing to convince my arms to go through the holes in my shirt, and buttoning jeans? Fuhget about it. In addition, I feel actually sick. Like there are nasty toxins in my body that need to get out. My head aches, my sinuses feel swollen. I generally want to climb back in bed and hide. 

So, is working out a drug? Do I have a hang over? Poor, maybe I am allergic! Do they make exercise Claritin?

"Negative Self Talk"

One of my 2016 goals is to cut down on "negative self talk." Though, sometimes I have trouble even convincing myself that is what I am doing. Often I think "I am just being honest." But if I am actually facing facts, I am consistently honest with everyone else in my life, and I would never look at one of them and say "you are worthless," "you are disgusting," "you have never really been an attractive person," and I DO say those things to myself in the mirror almost daily.

So how does one begin with "positive self talk?" I tried looking in the mirror and saying "You is good, you is kind, you is important," but it just felt like a lie. My sister says that you have to keep saying it to yourself even if it DOES feel like you are lying. So, I am trying something a little different tomorrow. I am thinking of something along the lines of "Straighten your God damned shoulders and face the world like an adult instead of cowering in your own thoughts like a little bitch." I will let you know how it goes.